rock-a-bye mama (he loves me different)

cute baby in the nude

[7|52: in the buff]

The way Judah looks at me is different to the way anyone else has ever looked at me before.

I’m not even really sure how to describe it except for the fact that it’s like he knows me. Really knows me.

{Even just writing that out feels so [...]

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nighttime parenting vs. daytime parenting: do we have split personality disorder?

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It’s easy to be a “good” mom during the day when the littles are happy and smiling and being cute… But what about nighttime parenting? That’s really where the rubber hits the road and your true parenting values come out.

 

I clearly remember thinking that four to six months was the most challenging [...]

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dealing with gender disappointment in pregnancy (and raising boys to be men)

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How I dealt with gender disappointment during pregnancy when finding out I was having a boy… and how much I love being a mom to boys now.

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We were convinced it was a girl. We wanted a girl. We even had chosen a girl’s name while we were still engaged.

So [...]

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the cost of motherhood | how much are you willing to pay?

the cost of motherhood is high but the value of children is higher

 

So many of my earliest childhood memories center around playing house. Whether we were playing “Little House on the Prairie”, building a fort outside, or dressing and redressing our dollies, I always wanted to “play house” so I could be the mom, have babies, and mother the children.

Now that I am the [...]

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learning how to love when you’re not your child’s “favorite”

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Sometimes my heart aches a little when I watch Ryan and Levi playing together.

They are so close. Levi is so utterly in love with his daddy. It makes my heart melt; I really do adore it.

A woman could have no deeper desire for her husband and children than to see them enjoy such [...]